huhrumph..... I believe that is the only way to describe it.....

So I have been working at RGIS.... not a bad place... wish I could make the rent. Ya know just the little things you ask for would be nice to get sometimes. It feels like I work all the time with all the travel and what not but even after working like 8 days last pay period I still only made like 245 dollars. So the way it looks now if I out right pay everything and save what I need to to make the rent I will have ...wait for it ...wait for it ..... 4 whopping dollars to my name for the next two weeks.On top of that my nose won't stop running. Why won't my nose stop running? Beats me but nothing helps either. Cold medicine doesn't help and neither do allergy pills go figure right. Just a random runny nose. And to top it all off my back has decided it no longer like me to sleep because laying down not only makes it hurt but my ribs as well. YAY!! Happy dance with a sarcasm sign!! I'm hoping that it stops soon that way I'll feel well enough to go and donate plasma again. That was at least helping. I do have an interview today though... hoping it goes awesome so I can have a regular mostly full time job at regular minimum wage instead of 9 bucks for 3 hours a day.


It seems like everything is pilling up. Like Mom and Dad had to help me with Henry last week cause all the sudden he decided that he needed a new battery. 112 dollars worth of new battery. At least it wasn't his starter though.
And then Paul has been stressing. Wish I could help there but I think I make it worse sometimes.


But bright side. I have completed two count them two craigslist ads. One for Cam's photography and one for my crochet things. I feel a little accomplished today! I made some pretty ad pictures for them in Photoshop.

So what do you think? I think they are snazzy!! 

Well I suppose that's all for now... will probably post again soon! 

Well shit...

So I'm tired. Not the "I need a nap" kind of tired but the " fuck the world and all its stupid little issues" kind of tired. I don't know what did it but I am most certaily fed up.
Lately it doesn't seem to matter if I do something correctly or if I fuck up all togather, no one really cares and most of them are mad at me for no fucking reason. It seems as though I am the scape goat for most all problems in my day to day life... it is my fault people are dumb, my fault people don't answer their phone, my fault you can bring your adult attitude to a conversation between adults... seriously why me? Like yesterday someone decided they would crisco my car... what did Henry do to you to warrant such treatment? And why the hell can't you leave me alone? If you've got beef then bring it! Quit being a fucking coward and stop fucking with my car damnit! First my cue then vandelizing my car.... SERIOUSLY?! What the hell is your problem? And on top of that not a one person can be straight with me at work and there sure as hell ain't anyone who listens to me! Why would you pick a fucking arguement with me in the middle of a rush while a customer is already argueing with me?! What the hell is your problem?!?!
There are sooooo many things I wish to rant, rave, and curse the world for but can't .... ya know that whole " what if someone sees that?!" thing, well maybe that was the fucking point! Did anyone ever think of that?! I haven't been this unhappy since my parent's devorce.... and I was 8 then... no real problems just toy cars and playing with worms..... kinda wish I had it all back..... cold weather, family everywhere, just home..... I just want home.....