So I'm tired. Not the "I need a nap" kind of tired but the " fuck the world and all its stupid little issues" kind of tired. I don't know what did it but I am most certaily fed up.
Lately it doesn't seem to matter if I do something correctly or if I fuck up all togather, no one really cares and most of them are mad at me for no fucking reason. It seems as though I am the scape goat for most all problems in my day to day life... it is my fault people are dumb, my fault people don't answer their phone, my fault you can bring your adult attitude to a conversation between adults... seriously why me? Like yesterday someone decided they would crisco my car... what did Henry do to you to warrant such treatment? And why the hell can't you leave me alone? If you've got beef then bring it! Quit being a fucking coward and stop fucking with my car damnit! First my cue then vandelizing my car.... SERIOUSLY?! What the hell is your problem? And on top of that not a one person can be straight with me at work and there sure as hell ain't anyone who listens to me! Why would you pick a fucking arguement with me in the middle of a rush while a customer is already argueing with me?! What the hell is your problem?!?!
There are sooooo many things I wish to rant, rave, and curse the world for but can't .... ya know that whole " what if someone sees that?!" thing, well maybe that was the fucking point! Did anyone ever think of that?! I haven't been this unhappy since my parent's devorce.... and I was 8 then... no real problems just toy cars and playing with worms..... kinda wish I had it all back..... cold weather, family everywhere, just home..... I just want home.....
Lately it doesn't seem to matter if I do something correctly or if I fuck up all togather, no one really cares and most of them are mad at me for no fucking reason. It seems as though I am the scape goat for most all problems in my day to day life... it is my fault people are dumb, my fault people don't answer their phone, my fault you can bring your adult attitude to a conversation between adults... seriously why me? Like yesterday someone decided they would crisco my car... what did Henry do to you to warrant such treatment? And why the hell can't you leave me alone? If you've got beef then bring it! Quit being a fucking coward and stop fucking with my car damnit! First my cue then vandelizing my car.... SERIOUSLY?! What the hell is your problem? And on top of that not a one person can be straight with me at work and there sure as hell ain't anyone who listens to me! Why would you pick a fucking arguement with me in the middle of a rush while a customer is already argueing with me?! What the hell is your problem?!?!
There are sooooo many things I wish to rant, rave, and curse the world for but can't .... ya know that whole " what if someone sees that?!" thing, well maybe that was the fucking point! Did anyone ever think of that?! I haven't been this unhappy since my parent's devorce.... and I was 8 then... no real problems just toy cars and playing with worms..... kinda wish I had it all back..... cold weather, family everywhere, just home..... I just want home.....
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