I don't know what to do. It feels like all I do is try and do my best and beyond , but somehow that just isn't good enough. I love with my whole heart and try to be patient. I know I may not be the kindest person but I have been trying to gentle with my words and slow when it comes to harsh things. The only thing anyone points out is that I'm a bitch cause I tell you the truth. If your too fucking stupid to know that you shouldn't run a car on its battery for an hour or idle a car with a bad radiator for 15 min until it starts to make this gross burnt smell then yes YOU ARE FUCKING STUPID and I will tell you to your face. Especially if its MY CAR your potentially ruining and have no plans on helping me fix it. I am so fucking tired of feeling like I am not good enough. I go above and beyond to do what needs done so we ca live and all I get is things like "You're a stupid bitch shut the fuck up" or "yeah whatever " and no eye contact like I am not even a person. Seriously?!?!? I at least deserve to be talked to like I exist when I drop things I want to do to help you or I don't go out because you don't want to. I do whatever I have to to pay bills, get US to work, feed US. All I get is ungrateful bullshit. Playing fucking games while I'm telling you why I'm hurt or stressed or that I need help. IT'S FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!
I know I probably shouldn't share with the whole interwebs but I need to vent and this is the only way I can get it all out. It all hurts and I can't stand it anymore. I can't keep bottling up all these things that hurt my soul and make me angry. I have lost so many in such a short time and I don't get to grieve and hurt cause I need to take care of you ! I have to be the strong one and power through. I get run over at work and at home, I can't talk to anyone because you get embarrassed. Well guess what I'M GONNA TALK TO WHOEVER I WANT AND YOU CAN FUCK OFF! I don't care if you don't want people to know you break things when your angry or that you call me names and treat me like shit just because you want to save face.
FUCK YOU I am better than you and all this bullshit so FUCK YOU !
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